So It’s officially completely through between Heather and I.
Despite all the signs thrown in my face over the last year and a half, I hadn’t had the sense to walk away until Thursday night.
We were supposed to hang out, and I got stood up again for the hundredth time by her. I waited for a fucking hour out in the cold, waiting for her dumb ass to show up, and she didn’t even call me.
Then tries to rationalize it to me later.
“I couldn’t go. I got a ride to somewhere. I didn’t have a phone. I’m not making excuses. I’m sorry.”
From an email from her. I replied that if she didn’t leave me alone I would tell her Dad she got her dumbass kicked out of Job Corps for being a lazy shit.
I even emailed her Ex to confess I we had been fooling around behind his back. Thankfully he was pretty chill with me. Guess I’m not the only one fed up with her bullshit.
She came back from jobcorps, and strung me along for a few days, then confessed she wanted to be a lesbian. I caught her in another lie, when on her myspace she had a guy she was talking about a lot, in her #1 spot, and a bunch of him oriented shit on her page.
Now, I’m not jealous of the guy, actually now I really feel for the guy, and what he’s getting himself into. I could care less if she get’s a new boyfriend. But the fact that she lied to be about it to “try to spare my feelings” or however she’ll put it later, pisses me off. I’m tired of people doing that to me.
And I’m tired of her. I would like this all to go away. I’ve given up too many good chances for this girl, and blown off a lot of really cool people waiting for her to come back around, when the whole time I should have took her for what she was, instead of what I wanted her to be.
From the first time she stood me up, when she was supposed to meet my fucking mom, to the countless times she ditched school, and still wasn’t ready by the time I got off of work. From the countless standing me ups for other people, to calling me all the way out from beaverton, just to tell me to take a hike so she could go out with other people. I’m so fucking fed up with this asshole.
God, I’ve gotten myself in such a state I picked up Carbon Leaf again. Oh well, check out this song, oh one person who follows this blog so far. hahah.
Sorry for the video content, it’s the first one I could find that wasn’t live, that had the full song. Hah.
Take it easy world, I know it’s time for me to too.
